Friday, December 23, 2011

Christmas Eve, Eve!

It's Christmas Eve, Eve! Around here that means last minute... everything. We are frantically shopping for ingredients for our Christmas dinner menu. Last minute chores are done. We enjoy family Christmas nostalgia though video. We pack for the trip to Grandma's house. Through all the hustle and bustle, my personal favorite is Christmas music.
This is my favorite time of the year... So I join in our great family tradition Christmas Eve, Eve.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Funny Kids

I've shared on a previous post that one of our family's greatest joys is to sit and read to each other. The other day my youngest picked up the book I was reading on my nook, The Legend of Sleepy Hollow. She started reading it to me with her British accent. I told her the story was set in New York. Without missing a beat she continued reading in her best New Jersey accent. I laughed a long time with her, it was priceless.

Where does that spontaneity come from? Maybe it comes from a love for good characters, or maybe it's just the magic of story time. Both of my kids also read a lot and listen to audio books too. They also re-read their favorites. I hardly ever do that. As I sit here I think of how blessed I am as a father to have a house full of eager readers.

I think our reading to each other nurtures the love and affection we share for one another. It's nothing new, but it is magical. I look forward to the next reading with my funny kids.

Friday, November 11, 2011

11/11/11

Veterans Day salute... As a father of two bright and beautiful kids I want to say thanks to our veterans for standing in the gap for me, my family and my friends. I also pledge to teach my children what this day is about just as you have pledged to support and defend The Constitution of the United States. Thank you.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Time Well Spent

Reading is one of my favorite pastimes. Dusting off an old favorite like Canvas Falcons by Stephen Longstreet about WWI aviators. Or, an Edmund Morris tome on some powerful figure in history. Or passages from Shelby Foote's Civil War narrative history vols. 1 and 2. Looking at this list I guess I read a lot of biographies and histories. History is a comfort to me and I guess I enjoy the company of that genre's characters.

However, my children have decided I do not read enough fiction. My oldest thinks it's an abomination I have not read Harry Potter. So she proceeded to read them to me. Wonderful, delightful, funny, engaging, my daughter is. She has an encyclopedic knowledge of each character, and narrates the story with flare. Of course J.K. Rowling has done a nice job writing as well. The point is my daughter and I have spent hours together laughing and screaming and just enjoying good company with a book, even a book I would probably never pick up on my own. By the way we are on book seven, don't spoil the ending!

I've noticed too that just as my children's personalities are different their taste in stories are different as well. My youngest is not very into H.P. short of watching the movies. That's not to say she doesn't read she does a lot. She reads more than I do and remembers the storylines better than I do too. Currently we are reading Paint the Wind by Pam Munoz Ryan. It happens to be her favorite book. And yes, We've read the Diary of a Wimpy Kid series. If you don't know what to read with your child start with Jeff Kinney. He's fun and offbeat and short, so he'll leave you wanting more. Especially if your kid reads it to you.

So, there you go, a snapshot of parent child one-on-one relationship building made easy. I'm not saying throw the T.V. out or post your video games on eBay. I'm just saying a good book with the kids is time well spent too.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Kicking against the goads!

Saul, later the Apostle Paul, was on a journey "given authority and commission by the chief priests" to smite the Christian movement from the land.

Jesus dramatically met Saul and asked a question that brought into focus a mistaken life and ministry with a simple observation. He said, "Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me? It is hard for you to kick against the goads." Now, I've read this passage many times but I had not taken notice of Jesus' poignant conclusion of Saul.

A goad was a sharp stick a farmer used to move his livestock along the road or to new pasture. I wonder if Saul was fully aware that he was bucking God's will by persecuting Christians. He had them thrown into prison, he beat them and even murdered them.

I imagined when Saul held the coats of his friends, as they stoned Stephen, he felt he was in the right. All his life up until his road trip to Damascus he served the Lord flawlessly. Maybe Saul had a crisis of trust. Should he trust the familiar, his religious training, or the unfamiliar, a call to go to the Gentiles?  Which led me to think, do I behave the same as Saul? Do I buck God's goads too?

Then, I thought about my daughter's 4H goat, Comet. We take Comet for a walk every day. Goats are very tough and stubborn. In his pen he is sweet as pie but he's a show goat and has to be trained. So, we put a training collar on him to lead and brace him. The collar is like a goad and I've got to tell you from the first day we took him out he was desperate to get away. He kicks and butts and bites and digs his heels in like he's being lead to his doom. He has a hard time on his walks because he kicks against the goads.

I'm like that. God sees the big picture, I don't. So, I kick against His goads. But, God wants me in the center of his will. Maybe, before I fight against something new I should stop, be still, be quiet and listen. He knows I want to be a good husband and father. He may share a whole new perspective with me and further my walk with him.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

9/11

Thinking about 9/11. Praying for my country that God would reveal himself to those of us crying out to Him. Our God reigns in chaos and suffering. Paul wrote in Romans:
"... I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God's love. Death can't, and life can't. The angels can't, and the demons can't. Our fears for today, our worries about tomorrow and even the powers of hell can't keep God's love away." NTL

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Back to School... Ritual or Routine?

Think about it, rituals are far more fun than routines. Rituals have gravitas, they are solemn, often religious usually performed with dignity in a church or university. Routines not so much. Routines are just, well regular. Routines don't serve a special purpose, we just settle into them. Typically, they are like driving your car to the gas station and filling up.

Back to school season for my family is a ritual. We perform our ritual every year, it's like Black Friday. The grown ups are faithful and the kids are, let's just say, dutiful. We all get up early, eat breakfast together, then Mom takes pictures of the kids in all their back to school glory. New shoes, clothes, backpacks, lunch boxes, hairdos, the works.

Every year this day is the culmination of all our optimism for our kids' prospects. This new year my kid will... then you fill on the blank. And every year past kindergarten the kids blanch at the idea of posing under their school signs in front of their peers. Many of whom are waiting their turn for their mom's photo shoot.

Routine sets in the very next day. We fudge our wake up time and grab breakfast as we fly out the door. Or maybe it takes a couple of days to find a routine. After Mom takes those pictures school becomes  regular. Like waiting for the red light to turn green so we can all drive to McDonald's and order the usual.

What's the take away? Maybe, I should just try to embrace the wonder of the ritual of the hope of a daily blessing, and make sure Mom gets a picture so we remember how far we have come together.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Amazing! Incredible! Unbelievable! $18,000 for one goat!!!

I took my daughter to our first FFA goat auction. I was prepared to spend upwards of $500 for our goat. We looked over all the animals. There were sixty. We made notes on several. We registered for our bidding number. Wow, we are really going home with one of these critters.  It was fun.

A good friend with 17 years of FFA animal husbandry experience went with us to help us along. He warned us that competitive goats could go for as high as $4500. My eyes popped wide. Who pays that kind of money in a recession for a goat? Not many he assured me.

However, we were confident we could take home a good quality goat at a reasonable price and, yes, $500 was reasonable to us. If we didn't win tonight there were many more opportunities to come.

There were sixty goats to sell. I realized we could be here for a long time. We weren't.

The auction started. The pace was lightning fast. All the animals were sold in forty-five minutes. It went so fast that by the time our chosen goats were up they were way passed our bid before the auctioneer finished his first sentence of auction-ese. The last of the sixty baby goats was auctioned for $18,000.

Amazing! You say. Who would pay that much money for one goat? You could buy a new Harley for that! We learned, someone who really, really wants to win the state goat showing competition. It's like a beauty pageant for goats. Never mind top prize is only $12,000. Just let that news rattle around in your head for a moment.

Incredible! Experts say. The goat was what they called a wether goat. Which means he will not be a daddy goat. Umm, ever. He will be strictly for show.

Unbelievable! I say.

Friday, July 22, 2011

Depression and Redemption

This morning I heard about a gospel singer-song writer, John Waller, who said God redeemed him from his longtime battle with depression. His album, "As for Me and My House," is a celebration of God's redeeming power and blessing for family. What a testimony!

Sometimes I wonder about those who suffer with depression today. How many are there? Millions. About 9% of the U.S population are diagnosed with clinical depression each year. Are those millions suffering alone? To me depression is a disease of isolation. God does not want us to live isolated lives. Look up. Find hope. Take the first step toward that pin prick of light. That tiny light shining into the well you find yourself in is hope for our heavenly father's love.

A few short years ago I too wrestled with clinical depression. It was the most difficult fight I have faced to date. Depression effected every corner of my life and any cracks quickly ruptured into emotional devastation. I wore my ragged happy mask in public, but at home that mask was tossed away.

My wife bore the brunt of my storming rages. She had no one to talk to and my depression became hers. It nearly tore us apart because she loved me but hated what I was going through and most of all the toll my crumbling emotions were taking on her and our children.

I didn't realize just how terrible things had gotten for my family. Everyone I loved most feared me. It was a dark, lonely time. I was like a wounded bear. I could explode over the smallest incident and they would suffer a severe emotional mauling. Looking back I see how painful I made their lives.

Today, I'm free from the chains of depression. Like, Waller, I believe God redeemed me too. Yes it was a difficult process to come through. No, I did not exert some act of iron will. I was powerless and God just did it all.

God saved me from that debilitating disease. For a while I was afraid my depressive tendencies would return. I sought assurances I was getting better from my wife, family and trusted friends. My strongest desire was to overcome depression's tyranny and be the best husband and father I could be.

But, all of this transformation was not my own doing; yes I took baby steps toward the light, but, God constantly planted the garden of a happy, healthy family, blessed by Him, inside my heart and when I couldn't water it He did.

"Have no fear the battle's won."-John Waller- Our God Reigns Here.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Does Something Bad Happen When You Listen to Christmas Songs in July?

It's July, and yes it was over a hundred degrees outside today! Christmas songs lilted through my headphones as I melted in the heat. The music kinda took some of the edge off the misery. The weird juxtaposition of the holidays got me thinking.

When my kids were little they insisted we listen to Christmas songs all year long. They were oblivious to the "rules". They didn't know they were breaking anything they just liked the songs. I remember thinking, why not? Besides, it's kinda fun to break conventional mores every once in a while. I'm always up for that!

I guess my point is it's easy to find a comfortable conventional spot and build a nest. I for one have a long and wide irreverent  streak and anytime that round peg butts up against a square hole I want to play too! I'd like my kids to understand customs are good, even important but that's precisely why, on occasion, it's good to enjoy a little Christmas cheer in July. They learn to keep things in perspective.

Well, the answer to the question is obvious, I hope. Plus, there is no hassle buying everyone presents.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Five Things I Hate About Fatherhood!

I like being Dad and love my kids. But, you know what? There are five things I hate about fatherhood!

1. Gross, elementary aged kids with unwiped runny noses. Especially noses with crusty, dehydrated boogers pasted to their nostrils and upper lips, who happen to come to my kids sleepover. Please, people chisel that mess off in the driveway before you let them into my house. As an aside, I don't like power washing kids faces either.

2. Texting. Yes, I know texting is a useful feature for my phone. In general. But, when my kid uses text spell to ask an intricate three part question, I punch in, two of my favorite letters "n" and "o." Here's why... I kinda like seeing fully spelled words when I read stuff. I don't care if they are misspelled words. I can figure those out. I'm a great misspeller of many famous words myself. But, when I have to go to the online texting glossary to find the definition to "omg I lol every time  my bff GL poots! ttyl ; )" It just makes me grumpy.

3. Putting money into the "Pout Pot" also known as the complaining jar. Everyone complains. We all have days were we just get fed up with stupidity. I think we can agree it's okay to complain about the big things. But, when there is a whiney voice lamenting how bored they are. (the kids) Or, yelling at slower traffic in the left lane. (umm, me) Followed by a small chorus singing, "You gotta  drop a quarter in the 'Pout Pot' Daddy!" I don't like it.

4. Going on a safari for the lost TV remote. I know what Stanley learned during his epic expedition to find Dr. Livingstone in the heart of Africa. I relive his trials all too frequently, hunting for that most elusive of quarry the lost TV remote. Names shall not be given here, but one time it was found in the fridge. On the other hand, like Stanley, when he finds Dr. Livingstone and the arduous trek is done, I am filled with overwhelming joy when the remote is finally found on Game Day.

5. Underwear left in wrong-side out jeans. Enough said. Just so you know I don't mind taking my turn doing laundry. I'm a good folder. Recently, however,  I've instituted a wash as is policy, and yes people, I'm gonna laugh at you when there are two pairs of underwear left in one pair of wrong-side out jeans.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Road Trip for Texas Topaz Leads to a Nerf War

Recently,  I went with my family on a road trip to Mason Texas. It's a small town in the Texas Hill Country. It sits north of San Antonio and just east of Koockville. You may ask what's in Mason Texas that you would drive seven hours to see? The short answer is topaz.

Don't get the wrong idea I don't know anything about geology. Nothing, nada, zip, zilch. I haven't identified a rock correctly since the eighth grade. Even then I probably got a C on the assignment. Rockhounds my family and I are not.

While driving out there we worried that it would be hot. It was. There might be rattlesnakes. We each signed a release and I carried a shovel with me everywhere we went. We found lizards but no rattlesnakes. I thought we might get to try kayaking on the lazy Guadalupe river. We didn't.

Mason's claim to fame is it's the topaz capital of Texas. We trekked into town and found a delightful throw back community. Complete with broad streets, presumably so a horse drawn wagon can turn around, and the courthouse located in the middle of the town square.

A lot of the town's architecture has original tin covered ceilings. Neat! There's the Odeon Theater of Mason. It was built in 1928 and is listed on the National Register of Historic Places. Cool!

We went into the general store and found Brent Hinckley the proprietor and mayor. He was a big fan of Mason. He told us everything we wanted to know about Mason including that it was the birthplace of Fred Gipson who wrote the Newbery Honor winning novel Old Yeller and Savage Sam among others.

I spied Nerf swords while talking to the mayor. I bought all he had and thanked the good mayor for the conversation. Then I armed my kids and my nephews and quickly attacked them. The melee spilled onto the broad streets and the town square.

We fought our way to PJ's Ice Cream and Soda Fountain. Once inside the Battle of Mason ended. PJ's had a shiney 1940's era soda fountain! Wow! Drinks for everyone! We saw the mayor again he waved and said he was glad to see we enjoyed his town. We really did.

In the end we didn't find topaz. We didn't see rattlesnakes. We didn't kayak. We found a friendly community with a unique history. The road trip helped us bond as a family, which was the real goal anyway. By the way we saw Pirates of the Caribbean at the packed out Odeon Theater. So, kudos to Mason Texas  a pretty great place were everyone has fun.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Fathers Day...Whew!

Since this blog is about my adventures as a dad and this is Father's Day here's what happened today. This morning before breakfast was finished my girls invited me into the living room for my Father's Day present. It was the coolest present experience since my fortieth birthday.

They sat me in front of the computer. With the click of a mouse a slick slide show came up. It was our story from 2004-present complete with appropriate teen music I had never heard before. But the girls liked their song selections and I have to say I was humming them the rest of the day.

Next we all piled into my truck and off to church we went. Sarah and I took care of preschool story time during Sunday School without a hitch. I went to "Big" church and helped usher and listened to Pastor David and Toby Rowland share about fatherhood and finding career satisfaction.

Afterward I was inspired to have my fifteen and a half year old drive home. She was startled, hesitant and let me know under no uncertain terms that in the future she would require at least a twenty-four hour warning before driving. I guess she needs to pluck up her courage. I told her I would take it under advisement but there were no guarantees. She did okay and we agreed she could use more practice.

Once safely parked in the drive, we started the great Father's Day feast. I grilled steaks. Yummy was the verdict! The rest of the day was uneventful and relaxing. It was a great day! I realized how simple it was for us to connect which in our busy lives  can be challenging. We just spent time together sharing our talents, laughing, stressing, eating (at the table!) and praying.

Whew! What a great idea Father's Day is. I hope I can regularly string more days together like this one. Thanks ladies. I think I got a renewed perspective on our family adventure through your demonstration of affection for your ol' dad.

Friday, June 17, 2011

It's A Man's Game!

Caution: Unauthorized Biography Alert!

"Football is a man's game," so says Ray Lewis of the NFL Baltimore Ravens. He's a hard hitting Super Bowl MVP linebacker. He was selected All-Pro twelve times in his fourteen year career. Few would argue against his analysis. You could say he's an expert on the subject.

He's also the prototype of someone who has faced tragedy and overcame devastation. One year before his MVP game on the NFL's biggest stage he faced double murder charges. He's a father who had to explain to his son why he was in jail. That's a gut check.

He was only twenty-six. Lewis had to overcome the firestorm, endure the constant criticism, and survive the fallout. He was acquitted of the charges, but plead guilty to obstructing justice. Ray Lewis has put that terrible time behind him. He grew.

Today, Ray Lewis is still number 52. He still plays Hall of Fame caliber football for the Ravens, the same team that drafted him fourteen seasons ago. He's a Christian, a businessman, a philanthropist, an activist, a leader and a dad.

I don't know him except what I see on game day. But, I suspect even though he's exulted as a player with the heart of a lion and as much passion for the game as anyone who ever buckled a chinstrap his greatest moments are the ones he spends being a dad. I admire him for that most.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Wow! My 16th Father's Day Is Coming Up... Already!

Most of you know Father's Day is coming up. It's my 16th one as a Dad I have two beautiful daughters. One is fifteen; the other is eleven. I like them most of the time. I love them all the time.

It seems like I just blinked a couple times during my oldest daughter's first year. Now all of a sudden she's smack dab in the middle of her teen years, driving my truck! Granted she's only got a learners permit, but another milestone goes speeding by.

My eleven year old is fearlessly creating American Girl stop motion videos with her Mac. They really are kinda cool. And she started band this summer. She'll play a clarinet, really! A clarinet! I've been informed it's not a horn, as in get your horn so we won't be late to band camp. It's a woodwind. Okay, but horn is shorter to say when we are in a rush!

Father's Day... It's good to be Daddy! It's good to be loved and admired even if it's just one day of the year. Smile at the kids, laugh at yourself, eat something good, kiss your wife, then go fix something that's on the "It's broken can you fix it Daddy?" list.